I still sometimes can find rare glimpses of peace and tranquility in the middle of such anxiety and despair. My biggest problem is that I know the feelings of pain and misery will always return no matter how many times I go out in the week as all my problems are still there. Having no support is hard. My only real friend only contacts me once a week via a PM message or two which is nowhere near enough to satisfy my loneliness. As I have said before using anxiety forums is useless to me as no one is very supportive or friendly.