When feeling down its hard to even reply to any blog, comment or indeed anything online as words dont seem to come into my brain and also dont make much sense. I feel like this most mornings even without a sleeping tablet or hangover so have tried to ban myself from using the internet until later in the day. However it dawned on me that it must be like this full time for people with more serious mentalness like major depression and anxiety so of course this is why its so much harder to get help of any kind. If you add social ineptitude into the mix you have the perfect storm for failure.
My obsession with TV dating shows on the basis of studying what those normals do and how they behave and also how the biggest twats I have ever known all got into relationships whereas I didn’t has led me to watching Channel 4’s Undateables from series 1 online. As mentioned in previous post its about people with mental and physical disabilities trying to find someone to love and often go on their very first date. Many of the people are absolutely lovely and you really feel for them and want them to find happiness.I dont think the show is exploitative at all as it genuinely seems to try and help and sympathise with them. I think it has also helped me in realising that not all people are so judgemental. Quite a few people are happy to date others with physical and mental health problems. When I go on walks on crowded city streets I am now far more conscious that many people are almost certainly nice and probably have huge problems of their own. This is better than seeing all humans as the enemy. I feel paranoid often but God knows how I would cope with Tourettes and shouting obscenities uncontrollably in front of people. They must be so brave to face their fears. I would probably never leave the house again.