But nothing fades as fast as the future
And nothing clings like the past, until we can see
So much more than this
There is something else there
When all that you had has all gone
After watching Groundhog Day last night I then went online and the first Youtube video recommended for me was about Buddhist teachings. It’s interesting how they are both linked. Bill Murray’s character only finds happiness and is allowed to move on when he finally accepts what is happening to him, understands other peoples pain and their point of view and then starts to be empathetic and kind towards others which in return creates happiness and peace of mind for him. Buddhist teachings seem to be much like this. It also links in with mindfulness and mediation. I knew long ago that my happiness is not to be found through wealth but somehow achieved through helping others but have never managed to achieve this due to be a complete loner due to anxiety. However in the last few weeks I have felt better through thinking differently. It’s like an awakening which is how it is often described as in spiritual terms. This is partly due to my friend who I spent another week with in January and also putting things together which I have seen over the years which all seem linked.
As someone who has always had a very scientific mind and wanted evidence it was hard to believe in any of this at first. After all I have always been fascinated with evolution, human behaviour, and cosmology and watched all documentaries on theses subjects since I was a boy. However when I began to watch documentaries on quantum physics it all changed. That’s because the greatest scientists on earth haven’t got a clue really what matter is and what it does. First the amount of matter we see everywhere is mostly empty. The space between atoms is so large that Mount Everest if compressed as tightly as possible would only be a few feet high yet weight the same. It’s only the resistance given off by the matter which is similar to magnetic force that you can’t put your hand through things as 99% of the table you see before you is empty space. Then atoms were only visible when viewed and reverted to wave form when not being viewed making some people believe the whole universe is some kind of hologram with matter only appearing real when we experience it. Another experiment found out people’s brains were able to predict what they were going to do in a computer related test not only five seconds before they did it but before even the computer had chosen what to ask the person as if events had already been decided somewhere else. Then you come on to the multiverse theory and the essence of time and consciousness. Even the big bang is a complete mystery as everything came form nothing which may have been another universe which of course begs the question where that came from and so on.
This spiritual kind of thinking may all be some kind of delusional fantasy and have no beneficial effect on my life at all but I find this more optimistic than anything I have come across before and it may be far more helpful than going over my painful past as I have done so often on this blog which really just keeps me in a negative mindset and thinking what if? all the time.