Falling down like scraps of paper
I will leave them where they lie to remind me
From the past a rumour comes
Don’t let it keep draggin’ you down
Throw the memory in an open fire
You’ll be free
Its quite strange to me that all the so called help I read about for depression and anxiety only confirms to me that I was correct all along and that there really is no help, cure or treatment for many people with both conditions and that I will almost certainly have to commit suicide at some point in the future. It’s quite scary to say the least but there is nothing else I can think of to do to stop much greater discomfort and pain. Treating people who are desperate simply as cowards is not a help or a cure. People actually get angry at you for being negative when you feel hopeless, the f**king idiots! So you are more likely to stay avoidant and not even post on forums. We dont want any negative people here! Its insane! (just like me then!)
If therapists get angry or frustrated at their patients ( I was reading about this from several people today who had gone to therapy)for not doing the hard work or giving up then the therapy doesn’t work. its like a doctor who is not capable of fixing a broken leg getting angry at the leg for not healing to hide the fact that he’s a shit doctor or his treatment doesn’t work.
Social anxiety treatment(its not really help, more like punishment as if you deserve to suffer) requires a huge motivation and willingness to speak to strangers every day even though it will often go badly. Depression makes this virtually impossible as you are miserable and unmotivated. Treatment for depression requires you go out and socialise with people and assumes you have great friends or family already and that you definitely are not shy. Together they seem incurable especially if past a certain age. The therapists and self help guides actually simply cant believe that highly negative people with a lifetime of years of failure are still negative because they see a therapist for 5 minutes. Its like they are the stupid ones. They try to bully and ridicule people to motivate them, which only makes them more suicidal just as reading about so called help has for me. Then they just blame you and say shit like some people dont want to change. They do, they are just not prepared to do anything especially when much of CBT for social anxiety is based on complete lies.